Well, I guess I officially became a cancer patient 72 hours ago. Actually I’ve been one for almost 2 weeks, but mentally, I didn’t really think I was one until Thursday (02/24/11) morning. That’s when I had the port put in. Pretty cool procedure actually, and I didn’t feel a thing. Unlike the bone marrow biopsy I had the day before the port. If any of you ever have to have a bone marrow biopsy, ask them to knock you out. It really hurts!!
Anyways, I’ve never really done anything like this before, blogging I mean. I don’t really know what to say here. I guess just to let everyone know that my prognosis is good. I’m not really looking forward to a year of chemo. In fact I’m scared to death by it, but what else can I do. Lately I’ve been experiencing less pain in my leg; not sure why, but I take it as a good sign. I’m hoping that this is an omen of things to come. That it will get better. That, while I may be uncomfortable during a treatment, nothing really bad will happen during it.
I’m not sure that makes sense. It’s hard to put my thoughts down, which is weird for me since I’ve always been good at writing. I guess I just don’t really know how to describe what I’m feeling.
Tomorrow is my first chemo treatment and I have no idea what to expect. The doctors can tell me what could happen, but not what will happen, since chemo affects everyone differently. The not knowing is frustrating, and it scares the hell out of me.
Normally, I am in really good spirits. I laugh about it. Make jokes. Guess I’m just in a bit of a funk right now. As the title of my blog says, “Scott’s Chemo Adventure” begins in less than 24 hours. Keep your fingers crossed for me.